Friday, February 27, 2009

Polar Me

How a person can reflect one thing outside and be completely different inside, I don't understand.
One of my favorite colors is grey. The thing is that I am not a grey person. In fact, I am very black and white. It is or it isn't, I am really happy or I am miserable, I am in a great mood or I am furious. I believe that in relationships there is no mid-point, you either give yourself fully or not at all.
I love circles, but I am very square. I am extremely methodical, I need to plan everything, I do not like to try new things, one of the worst feelings I can feel is insecurity, if I could have a checklist for life I probably would.
I am a mess, yet I am in order. I tend to make a mess everytime I need to organize. I do not like to fix surfaces, I like to dig everything up and then put it back together. Most of the time I am an emotional wreck, but somehow, I know exactly what is wrong with me, I just have trouble figuring out how to fix it.
I am extremely corny and sentimental, but I don't think I like for it to show. I actually feel like quite the retard typing up this post. However, I guess since I have taken the time to type it up and even made a nice drawing for it, I will share it.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009


es this is retarded;

nd I do this type of
thing all the time

arely ever post
anything about
myself or of much

h, well.

Friday, February 20, 2009

To Blog


What a horrible word


February 20 Insight...

Would anyone like to agree or disagree?

Trying to figure out my state of mind...

According to Webster online dictionary:

Main Entry:
Pronunciation: \ˌkän(t)-sən-ˈtrā-shən, -ˌsen-\
Function: noun
Date: 1634

1 a: the act or process of concentrating : the state of being concentrated ; especially : direction of attention to a single object b: an academic major or area of focus within a major

NOTE: Please see my favorite definition highlighted in my favorite color, grey. How informative/insightful. However, if one of them had to describe my attitude now it would most likely be... the definition highlighted in a lighter grey (my second favorite color); the single object being of course, my job.

Main Entry:
Pronunciation: \prə-ˈkras-tə-ˌnāt, prō-\
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): pro·cras·ti·nat·ed; pro·cras·ti·nat·ing
Latin procrastinatus, past participle of procrastinare, from pro- forward + crastinus of tomorrow, from cras tomorrow

transitive verb : to put off intentionally and habitually intransitive verb : to put off intentionally the doing of something that should be done

NOTE: Thing that should be done - work, thing that is intentionally being put off - work. It seems that we are getting somewhere.

Main Entry:
Pronunciation: \ˈin-t(ə-)rəst; ˈin-tə-ˌrest, -ˌtrest; ˈin-tərst\
Function: noun
Middle English, probably alteration of earlier interesse, from Anglo-French & Medieval Latin; Anglo-French, from Medieval Latin, from Latin, to be between, make a difference, concern, from inter- + esse to be — more at is
Date: 15th century

1 a (1): right, title, or legal share in something (2): participation in advantage and responsibility b: business , company 2 a: a charge for borrowed money generally a percentage of the amount borrowed b: the profit in goods or money that is made on invested capital c: an excess above what is due or expected 3: advantage , benefit ; also : self-interest 4: special interest 5 a: a feeling that accompanies or causes special attention to an object or class of objects : concern b: something that arouses such attention c: a quality in a thing arousing interest

NOTE: It is possible that it is a lack of interest. At the moment there is no special attention to the object being my work.

Main Entry:
Pronunciation: \ˈlā-\
Function: adjective
Inflected Form(s): la·zi·er; la·zi·est
perhaps from Middle Low German lasich feeble; akin to Middle High German erleswen to become weak
Date: 1549

1 a: disinclined to activity or exertion : not energetic or vigorous b: encouraging inactivity or indolence 2: moving slowly : sluggish 3: droopy , lax 4: placed on its side 5: not rigorous or strict

NOTE: Now I'm just mad. Since when are you lazy just because you are not energetic or vigorous?!?!?!

Key Insight #1 – People started being lazy before they started to procrastinate

Key Insight #2 – People started to procrastinate before they started to concentrate

Key Insight #3 – Timeline: Laziness à Procrastination à Concentration

Key Insight #4 – I might be lazy, which is the mother of my present situation

Thursday, February 19, 2009


Don't know what to do
Find myself bored as a rock
I wrote a haiku!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Thursday, February 12, 2009

I just don't know what to do with my blog...

Ok, so now I have this blog and I'm not sure what to do with it. I really don't want to turn it into my diary.

Hello, who cares what you did today, or how you feel... say something funny or entertaining.

So I took the time to google (notice I did not search the web. I google [Google: verb - to search on the web]) a joke:

Evils of Liquor

A professor of chemistry wanted to teach his fifth grade class a lesson about the evils of liquor, so he produced an experiment that involved a glass of water, a glass of whiskey, and two worms.

"Now, class. Observe the worms closely," said the professor as he put the first worm into the water. The worm in the water writhed about, happy as a worm in water could be.The second worm, he put into the whiskey. It writhed painfully, and it quickly sank to the bottom, dead as a doornail.

"Now, what lesson can we derive from this experiment?" the professor asked.Little Johnny, who naturally sits in back, raised his hand and wisely, responded, "Drink whiskey and you won't get worms!"

Not my choice of drink, but hey... I laughed, very deep inside.

Friday, February 6, 2009


By 10:58 am...

  • I sent a love note (email)
  • Found out that my mental age is 40
  • Researched my name and came to find that I'm the only person in the country with it, although I already suspected it...
  • Created a road sign

  • Learned that apparently, a leopard can't change its spots! Who would have thought?